Who’s cheating who?

I haven’t been able to write as much as I have wanted to..and there is much I would like to get off my chest but I guess I’ll start with what is bothering me the most.

Apparently it is ok to have girls call you from other states and you can tell them lies that we aren’t together and pretend to me at least that they are your family members…meanwhile I can see the messages they are sending you…to bad I can’t see what you’re telling them, but I get the point, you like talking to them because then I am the bad guy. I’m crazy and all about the drama, you are just here for the kids and so on…so if that is so why are still here? why are you telling me one thing and them another.  I mean if it is really that bad here feel free to leave…but you wont. And due to circumstances I need you to stay to babysit the kids.  so how about we just call a truce..and call it like it is.  A cheating mess.  You are trying not to technically cheat on me, but this is worse.  I’m cheating myself by pretending that you actually want to be with me, and we are cheating te girls out of a stable and happy home….

how do we fix it? I guess it is time to fix it..grow upand just say hey we aren’t working.  But due to daycare issues I need you to stay around so I can’t push your buttons too much then there goes my job…

Please someone send me some help in some way and make sure you make a big neon sign so I will realize that is my help and my way out…

Bed time Routine…

so I’m starting to feel bad that next week I wont see the girls as much during the week.  I will have to get up early and be home in time for bath and bed.  So I have started getting back into reading them stories after bath time.  I love that they want me to read but sometimes I;m like really this book again for 600th night in a row..lol.    I am looking for some new favorites if anyone has some suggestions.  Here are the girls favorites (im trying to include pictures as well):

Go Dog Go! by Dr. Seuss

Girl of Mine by Jabari ASim

IF I WERE (a tag junior book )

I love you through and through

Polar bear polar what do you hear?

I love that each of the girls tries to read their favorite parts.  or probably just recites them from memory but it’s still adorable! now if only they would stay in bed and go to sleep!!!!

Daycare Blues

So at the end of February my daughters daycare moved, they have been home with me since I was recovering from surgery.  After much looking we found a daycare that was close to home in walking distance and one that the girls like instantly.  Now I realize that some of you may be thinking how can a 2 1/2 and a 16 month old know what they like well they have always known since they were about 2 months old and since they will be spending their days there it is important for them to actually like the place.

Any who as I am rambling here, today was their first day and my oldest was excited to go play with  her new friends and their toys and play tools.  at least she was until she realized that mommy and daddy werent staying so of course once one cries the other cries…so we hurried up and left. 

Once again I have the daycare blues.  I am happy to have some peace and quiet while I go to the bathroom by myself..but I  am sad that I had to leave them like that.  Although I know that they will be just fine and it is just an adjustment period.  Give me a week and hopefully most of the nagging feeling in my belly will disappear or at least the urge to call every 10 minutes..hopefully